I’m a Planner…

The first step is admitting you have a problem, right? Haha. Since becoming a mom to these three beautiful babes, my list making and plan making has been taken to the extreme. I don’t think I even realized how bad it had gotten until this morning.

The kids all have colds so we’ve been running on E for about a week. This morning, I just decided to keep the kids home from church, but I had things I needed to do there, so I went by myself.

Bryan had things he needed to do to get his race car rolling and so his mom was going to watch the kids for me a bit today so I could have a little bit of ‘me’ time. When I got to church, I found out that my mom was sick.

She was set to go to Disney on Ice with my sisters-in-law and my nieces, but obviously with how sick she was, she wasn’t going to get to go. They wanted me to take the extra ticket and bring the babies.

Now, I don’t know if it’s because I’ve been stuck in my house all winter, or if it was just the fact that I wouldn’t have Bryan or my mom with me, but my mind immediately went into anxiety mode.

I literally cried trying to think about making the decision. Obviously there were plenty of capable hands going, it’s just not something I would normally do without Bryan, or at least my mom.

I was a nervous wreck even considering saying yes. I talked to Bryan and he told me to go and both of my sisters-in-law said it would for sure be fine. On top of that, we were supposed to be preparing for a snowstorm. So that was adding to my stresses.

I know I need to step out of my comfort zone a bit. I have three kids, I need to be able to take them places and do those types of things on my own. (Well, not really on my own) but because I didn’t have the time to mentally prepare, I was freaking out.

I had made the decision to go and had to hurry home to get them some Disney clothes. On top of that, I needed to go and pick them up from my in-laws and be at my parents house in a crazy low amount of time.

I ended up being ten minutes late. So frazzled because I hate being late, we switched carseats over to another car and my sister-in-law drove us to Pittsburgh. The babes slept most of the way there so that part was fine. I was feeling better about going just because I had the decision to go.

Getting to Pittsburgh, and getting to our seats, I then felt even better. As the day progressed, I was so happy I had made the decision to go. The kids had so much fun. I’ll post pictures and videos on Instagram for you to check out. Brookie immediately started taking everything in and the boys clapped and they all danced along. It literally made me so happy.

More than halfway home, everyone was over being in the car. They all wanted food and they all wanted out. We stopped to eat but by that point they hit their breaking point. It was snowing so it took us a lot longer to get back than it normally would have.

Luckily, once the seats were switched over and I was on my way home, I was breathing easy. The roads home for me weren’t great but the hardest part that normally would’ve made me nervous was completely clear. Thank you, God.

I prayed pretty much all day. Safe travels. The right decision. Free me from my anxiety of taking my three (almost) two year olds out without my husband. Then back to safe travels. We almost made it home and Brody was so upset he threw up. So that part wasn’t fun. Cleaning it up was even less fun. But I have to say, to watch my kids experience that all for the first time was so much fun.

Knowing that I can do things like that and even though it made for a super long day for them, we are home and everyone is sleeping. Hopefully the night goes okay what with a small cough and three colds, but that would’ve been my night anyways.

So, needless to say, I could’ve probably planned my day better had I had the time to prepare, but winging it today was a really good experience for me. I need to step out of that box a little more and get used to it, because the fact of it all is, I am a mom of three. These are just things that I am going to have to do in order to give them that normalcy.

I also have to note, I am so proud of my babes. The lady behind us, after she realized they were triplets, couldn’t stop telling me how shocked she was with how well behaved they were! So pat on my back there, the kids always do really well in public. Hope everyone has a happy Monday!

If you have a chance to go see Disney on Ice Search party we give it 5 out of 5 stars for sure! The babies absolutely loved it and I know everyone with us loved it too! They jam packed it with music and tricks and a cute story to go along with it.